Has anyone ever NOT put their whole effort and heart into something because the idea of it failing is too much?
So, in case you fail, you can say or have an excuse that you didn’t put in 100%. Or you didn’t have the time to give your best! You unconsciously set up limitations for your success?
“Ohh well, if I’d had enough time to give it my all, it would be so much better, outstanding, undeniable.”
For instance, I never put 100% into my music. Sadly, I never really worked for it. I coasted! I “faked” it. I gave about 50% effort into music. I never felt it was my true calling……..
I’ve been thinking about that a lot lately.
Why would I do that?
Why would I choose that?
Why do I procrastinate?
Is it really because I am afraid to fail?
I’ve failed a million times and I have learned from it. I’m still here. I’m not scared to fail. Failure’s, setback’s, “No’s” are inevitable in our lives. Failure builds character and drives us to do better, to be better.
I’ve definitely have enough for a lifetime. In this blog, I have been honest and upfront about my failures. I have given this blog 100% of me. It is creatively the first thing I have put my “all” into. In hopes to tell Buggy’s story and make systematic change. So that my experience will stop others from going through what happened with Aria and I.
So, is it failure that I am afraid of?
I don’t think so.
I think it is the expectation that comes along with being GREAT and SUCCESSFUL that scares me the most. Being so vulnerable with what happened to Aria and to be held to a certain standard on creating change.
That’s a big task. A BIG HUGE RESPONSBILITY.
I find myself procrastinating the plan that God has for my life, out of fear. But not fear of failure, fear of success.
A message and a journey that I was put on earth to share.
God made me Aria’s mother, they picked me. I received 13 years of pure joy with her. She showed me what love is.
No coincidence that I went into the mental health field.
I have a job to do. Bugs has completed her’s and its time for me to swallow my fear, share her legacy, and face the job that I was put on this earth to do.
Forever be Aria’s mom and I PROMISE to be forever your advocate!