Aria’s Mom

What is personal inventory? Everyone has their own definition but, for me, it means is to take responsibility for my actions, check my bias’s, promote self-awareness, identify what I would like to change, and ACCEPTING who I am…… Sounds simple but, believe me, its not. Its not easy to truly look introspectively and basically, “check…

Its been awhile since I’ve blogged. I don’t really have a good reason. Except I’ve realized how difficult the first few months of the year are for me. January, I am physically and emotionally preparing for February. February 5th is the last time I talked to my baby. February 6th, the anniversary of Aria’s death….

If this year has taught us anything, its how fragile life is. I learned that in 19′ when I lost Bug. But 2020 solidified it for the rest of the world. Well, at least for the ones that believe Covid exists. As we all are counting down the minutes for 2020 to end; I pray…

Has anyone ever NOT put their whole effort and heart into something because the idea of it failing is too much? So, in case you fail, you can say or have an excuse that you didn’t put in 100%. Or you didn’t have the time to give your best! You unconsciously set up limitations for…

On Sunday, September 13th, I went to my Mom and Gary’s house to visit my Nana. She moved into my parents house over the 4th of July weekend. Her health was declining and she was living in a nursing home where she was unable to receive visitors because of Covid. It made her very lonely….

Aria loved Paramore. I took her and her friends to see them in concert twice. Her favorite song was Hard Times. I couldn’t understand how an 11 year old could connect with a song talking about Hard Times. I would ask her, and she’d say “Its about life, Mom.” I would think “fair enough, she’s…

These are extremely difficult times. Its Monday, June 8th. Two week ago today, George Floyd was killed by the knee of the ones appointed to “protect and serve” us. It was hands down one of the most gruesome video’s I’ve ever watched. After Aria passed, I did a lot of research about how long it…

Hello everyone, its been a while since I have posted. A lot has happened since my last post. Yet, I felt like I didn’t have anything to say, so, I didn’t. Aria’s 15th birthday passed, with no party. It still makes me cry when I think of it. Nick and I did our best to…

These last few weeks have been very strange. Ever since Aria passed, I feel like I look at the world from the outside looking in. I feel like I live in my own little world. My own little bubble. A bubble where I watch people move around me at a million miles an hour. Where…

I know it’s not Wednesday, but, I felt like talking today. I actually was going to write yesterday, yet, didn’t have the chance to get to it. Maybe it’s because I am supposed to write this TODAY. Yesterday, on my way to a Suicide prevention initiative meeting with Hennepin County Department of Public health, I…