October 2019

I know I always talk about how certain times and places bring back so many memories. But, they do! I feel so lucky and blessed to have so many. Fall was one of Aria’s favorite time of year. She liked the fresh smell of the crisp cold air, she loved how beautiful the trees looked…

When Buggy passed, I took some time off of work. I went back to Park, which was my job before she passed, on April 1st. Within a week, I knew I wasn’t happy there and I never would be. I told HR that I was planning on leaving but, I wanted to give them time…

Saturday, October 12th marked one year since I started dating my boyfriend. Actually, it was October 7th, however, Aria passed on the 6th, the 7th is the day after and I didn’t want our anniversary to be so close to that day. So, we decided to take 21 (Aria’s birth date) and switch it around…

Sunday marked 8 months since Buggy passed. It still doesn’t feel real. It feels like a really long awful dream. Since her passing, she has only showed up in my dream’s 3 times. Nothing overly prophetic or no heavily conversations, she’s just there. Last night was one of them, she was around 3 or 4…

As I have stated in the past, since Aria has passed, I have sent numerous emails to suicide “prevention” organizations in hopes to learn about how they are tackling this growing epidemic, primarily in teens. I said in a previous post that I wrote to the Minnesota Area Director of The American Foundation for Suicide…