Today, is February 5th. February 5th is the last day I talked to you, my sweet Aria Joy. It was the last time I heard you say, “I love you.” My last text from you, “Goodnight mom, I love you” at 10:50pm that evening. Somewhere between 12:15am, the last time Nonnie checked on you, and…

Last night, I prayed hard for clarity on the issue I was going to bring up in today’s blog. In my dream, Aria was gone for awhile(she was presumed dead) but then showed up. She had been in a hospital or treatment of some sort for suicidal ideation or an attempt. When she came home,…

On Friday, Nick and I went to see Just Mercy. I’ve been waiting to see that movie since mid October. I heard about it while attending the 2019 Twin Cities Film Festival. By the time I heard about it, the movie was sold out. It was released in certain cities on Christmas Day, but, no…

If I were to write a “self help” book about How to deal with grief, it would start something like this, “Grief is not linear. It does not go away. There is no formula for how you will grieve and when it will hit. There are many different emotions that people who experience grief may…

Last Friday, Nick and I were watching movies. He fell asleep so I decided to watch Heaven is For Real for the first time. I just finished Die Hard before starting Heaven is For Real. I realized I needed to pee and grab a ginger ale(my fav) before I got invested in the next movie….

On December 6th, it marked 10 months without my baby. It still feels so unreal. I don’t know if I’m just numb, in denial, or I’m experiencing the Peace that God promises when you turn to him. I have thrown myself into my faith because I don’t know what else to do. I know my…

As I’ve told you guys before, Aria nudges me around the weekend and gives me an idea of what to write about for the week. There was no question she wanted me to write about Friends. At first, my goal was to write about the TV show and how much it has helped me. But…

On Friday, I went to the Anthony Hamilton concert with my girlfriends. I like him a lot but, I primarily went to hear one song “Pass Me Over.” That song has been one of my favorite songs for years. Why, I don’t know? It has always spoke to me. It’s one Christian song in the…

********* TRIGGER WARNING********* I used to think there was no such thing as a stupid question. However, I was proved wrong. Now what I am about to say is not to hurt anyone or to make people mad at a certain person( who will absolutely not be named). I am telling this story to use…

Usually by the weekend, I get a nudge or an “inkling” of what I am going to write about each week. I had a tough time this week. I wasn’t quite sure what I wanted to write about. On Saturday, Nick and I went to Target. We had a few things we needed to grab….